Insecurity Vs. Gratitude

I realize that even if you already are the most beautiful,sexiest, wealthiest, smartest, most famous, most successful person…. You could still bethe most insecure about yourself. I do envy thosepeople who may not have all the opportunities or all the talents, but they are free of any insecurity. I also realize that the mostinsecure people are ungrateful, needy and very hard to please. They think andspeak highly of themselves during the day or in front of many, but at the endof the day, they look at the mirror and they criticize themselves and they feel this insecurity in all levels of their being.

Okay, I admit... I'm guilty of this sometimes and eating breakfast food at dinner time, watching too much of “Keeping UpWith The Kardashian” and listening to my life changing audio books on my drive to work everyday...

This is just my general observation as I have been watchingmyself closely on my own daily reality check on building a strong character formyself in becoming more grateful and less needy... to be more appreciative of myself than critical. I believe that if I develop this grateful attitude towards myself, that I will have better attitude towards others around me. Though this is something that I have been doing amazingly for the past few years, I found that this has become my most powerful daily habit and now a part of me and my conscious inner being.

Everyday or every time I exchange conversation with people, especially those who are close to me, I try to findthis unique gift of humility and gratitude in their hearts. I feel blessed whenever I hear them say, "I'm so thankful" or "I'm so grateful" or "I'm so blessed"... not only in their happiest moments, but most especially in their most trying times. I always feel grateful whenever I can see even a small spark of gratitude in a person.

As I've read many books on achieving personal success and happiness, having the attitude of gratitude has been the most valuable lesson I have learned from these great preachers. Here's a short video I found today how gratitude can lead to abundant life. It is not beauty, not wealth, not talent nor intelligence, but a practical attitude of gratitude.

Facebook Face Off (Identity Crisis of Sorts)

Yesterday, I was having one of those moments thinking clueless and having an identity crisis of sorts in my Facebook. And I wrote, "I have 1,320 Friends in FB.... It's overwhelming! If I can scam you all for a dollar each, I'll be $1,320 richer! And all I post now are QUOTES... Am I missing something here? Where's the goofball behind this profile?" And seriously, where's the hyper and theatrical character owner of this..... Confessions of a Fabulous Pinay blog???

First, let's talk about the status of your face..... I've picked this one up from a friend's FB status few weeks ago and I loved it because it's so true!

"Welcome to FB! Where love stories are perfect. Where shit-talkers tell the truth. Where everyone brags they have the perfect life and claim to be in love with their partners. Where your enemies are the ones that visit your profile the most. Where your ex-friends block you. Where your ex-love 'unfriends' you. Where you post something and people interpret whatever the hell they want." (Shout out to Roldan Din's FB, woo-hoo!) OK, I'm guilty and I'm sure many of you can relate to this awful truth. But that's the beauty of Facebook... you can be vulnerable and sensitive, frank and annoying, or inspiring and simply making people smile - just to get some sort of attention. Don't we all need attention?

Lately, I have estranged myself from FB, and to fill in some gag of life on my wall, I would feed it with my Twitter quotes.... I can not keep up with my FB population anymore and I don't know what else to offer them except something that I'm passionate about through positive quotes.

To confess to whoever enjoys reading my FB wall and this personal blog, here's some real-life status updates I can openly share in this post, and I'm not holding back.... (Imagine me holding a mega-phone.... but who cares!)

"If I'm responsible for giving a person a smile, that's the greatest feeling in the world!"

"When I'm offered a halo-halo, a turon, or a banana-que, I light up like a little girl on a Christmas morning!"

"If we don't make love, it'll be just fine."

"I like girls who celebrate their beauty in their own uniqueness and passion, who didn't have to go with the flow to be cool."

"I sometimes feel that I have emasculated everything around me."

"When you hear that song, will you think of me?"

"Make me happy, beautiful, and rich, and I will pay you attention."

If you're sick of FB like me, here's a cool youtube video about controlling your Facebook Fever!

The Case Study of My Intuition

Today, my intuition says it's time to speak the truth about my special "intuitive" gift. Intuition is this ability to understand something immediately, without the need of conscious reasoning.... the ability to see any event or any object from a viewpoint of the cosmic whole... the ability to get a sense, vision or feeling about someone or something.

A year ago, I met this intuition expert in one of the networking events in Salt Lake City and when she told me she was writing a book on intuition, came this strong rush of feeling inside me and I was bursting out like a drag queen, and I said "I've been hiding in my intuition closet. I know it's there and it wanted to come out so strongly and so undeniably that they startle me.... It is like every cell of my body is screaming at me to do something, to take a certain course, even though logically it may make no sense..." That confession to this woman I just met had led me to open my mind and heart to study it and learn how to tap in its power, listen to it, trust it and teach it to guide me. It was not an overnight makeover but many months of practicing my awareness of this amazing gift. Once I came out of my closet and awakened my inner guide by unlocking the wisdom of my subconscious mind, I already know what to do - no questions asked.

I've written a little bit about it in my last year's blogs but not with huge compliment. For example, I wrote something like.... "I feel that there is something big and significant that will happen to me this year. I don't know what or why or how, but I feel that I need to prepare for it." And so I followed this instinct and took the actions without questions... and so I was right!

The interesting thing about intuition is that it doesn't necessarily coordinate with our current reality or current life. Sometimes, our intuition serves as a protector, preventor or guide. Sometimes, you may not know why you took the action you took until more time passes... One thing I know for sure is when I don't follow those intuitive hints, I usually pay a price down the line.

Call it gut-feelings, instinct, inner guide, little voice inside my head, internal GPS, higher self, wizard within..... I have learned to trust this gift to always lead me in the direction of my dreams. I have learned to train that part of me so I have an overview of my life that has my best interest at heart. It can provide me an oasis of peace in the midst of chaos, bring me to harmony, help me release negativity, and give me confidence to take action and prepare for change in my life. It also can be a valuable guide as I take steps to create my dreams and know how to turn them to reality.

Here's a video that I found that talks a little bit about How to Tap into Your Intuition (and not to over think all the time...).

The Fabulous Pinay Finally Speaks The Truth

The truth is I wondered why I don't write blogs as much as before. (What's new pussycat?) The truth is I felt that so many good things has happened in my life already this year that it will make me sound so full of my self if I highlight them one by one. The truth is I feel humbled in many of those milestone moments. And the truth is I just kept it to myself... when I should have spoken the truth.

This past weekend I took the liberty to be with a group of like-minded women in Salt Lake City called the "Ignite Your Spark 2011, Speak Your Truth." I knew without a doubt that this is my event. Not only do I want to ignite my spark but I need lots of fuel to set my ground of fire.... well, that's too graphic, what I'm trying to say is, I needed more courage to step out of my box because I feel like I'm going to breakthrough this year.... I don't know how, I don't know why, but I feel it coming...

The "Speak Your Truth" tag line also inspired me. This personal blog has been my way of speaking my truth for the past several years. I have written humorous tales from my childhood "promdi prabins" days up to my humbling experiences here in the states... All of those served me well to be the strong and independent woman that I am now.

I had many unforgettable memories from this conference, but there was one moment that I will forever cherish. It was when I shared to a few women a personal testimony as they shared to me their own dreams and what they hope to gain from this conference... Last year, I once felt fear and had gone through some adversity. Those days I so-called my "Ramen Noodle days" really tested me, my bank account and most especially, my attitude. As an advocate of self-empowerment tools like books, magazines and audio CDs on positive thinking, visualization, attitude of gratitude, law of attraction, etc. I knew those moments were the perfect opportunity for me to put these wisdom to action. I even highlighted them in a few blogs, like the New About Me, and the Four Fearless Steps that Made a Difference in my Life. There was only one thing for sure that I did. I MADE A DECISION. And I act upon it, and the rest was history.

Lastly, I wanted to share this inspiration that I got from the conference: "How does one become a butterfly? someone asked.... It is when you want to fly so much that you're willing to give up being a caterpillar." The truth is, without focus and action, your dream remains just that.

2011 The Year of the Fierce Pinay

Every beginning of the year is the time when I would sit at a corner and think and envision what my new year would be like... This is also the time when I review my past year's blogs and see what I highlighted in my life. My last year's over all mission is CHANGE. Attitude change, check! Career change, check! Fabulous to Fierce, check!

Today I declare for myself that 2011 is the Year of the Fierce Pinay. The past year I have followed women celebrities who inspired me to find my fierce self - Tyra, Oprah, Ellen, Katy Perry, Beyonce, Lady Gaga, to name the famous ones. These are women who celebrated self-empowerment in their talk shows and songs, who values self-acceptance of our own uniqueness - of ethnicity, color, body, face, and attitude! I also follow a few extraordinary people with good inspiring teachings and stories of their journey, their struggles in order to succeed in their career and businesses. Now that I have laid my foundation for my fierceness, I can not wait for what 2011 will bring me!

If there is one fierce Bible verse that I will live by in 2011, it is to live the Ephesians 3:20 life: "Now to Him who is able to do exceeding abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us..." To put it simply in my own phrase - "what I ask or think about is powerful within me and that GOD is able to do exceeding abundantly beyond for me..."

If there is one song that would empower me to start this new year with some bang, that would be Katy Perry's FIREWORK! This is my New Year's song. Here's to all the fierce men and women of the world who decided to work the power within them to realize all their dreams this 2011, "You just gotta ignite the light, And let it shine, Just own the night, Like the Fourth of July..." Remember, "Baby, you're a Firework!!"

2010 My Year of Gratitude

Today, I appreciate being able to write. I lost my voice, literally, and it's frustrating to even answer my phone because I just whisper.... Good that there's texting, Facebook, and of course, blogging - at least I can still communicate and reach out to the world. How I lost my voice? Long story at our friend's New Year's Eve party!

2010 has brought me so many lessons learned, faced many fears and endured different challenges... But in return, I became wiser and I have discovered so many of my strengths, and most especially, I have received many countless blessings with my new found life lived with the power of gratitude. As a result of this life-changing decision, so many of my dreams were fulfilled in 2010.

If there's one powerful thing I can share to anybody who's reading this: STOP COMPLAINING AND BE GRATEFUL in everything you do and don't do, in everything you have and don't have - everyday. Things and situation suddenly turns into positive when you are grateful. This is one major ATTITUDE makeover I did for 2010 - I do not complain anymore. Continuing to 2011, I choose to stay positive, be happy and be grateful everyday, and continue to expect abundance in my life. God is good, always.

A year-ender homemade video is here to cheer you on! Our super kulit na Christmas Day video opening gifts and surprises with our Chipmunk voices and music by Black Eyed Peas!