New "About Me"

This past month of April passed by too fast and too furious for me, and shame on me that I had no single post! When I get all my pictures in my Houston visit loaded here in my laptop, I'd like to share with you all here in my blog why my recent birthday (yes, I'm older again!) was the most fun of all!

Today, I have updated my Blogger Profile "About Me" as it was inspired by a verse that was discussed in the church I attended today. "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline. 2 Tim 1:7"

Here's my blog-worthy "About Me"... I am a self-taught and self-empowered motivator, and I believe in the power of my personal written words. I use my blogs as an extension of my being, my doing, my thoughts, my creation, my power, my discovery of my destiny… I am ambitious and I set myself to achieve success and to realize all my dreams. I believe that God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline. (2 Tim 1:7). This is why I believe I can do amazing things and can manifest all my personal potentials and greatness that God gifted me. Although this makes me feel like I’m not humble enough, but when you believe that your potentials and greatness are your gift back to the world, you can be astounded when you can touch someone’s life with it… contribute to make the world a better place, make life more meaningful and God’s grace a delight to experience.

I hope that inspired you today.

To your power and greatness,
Czarina

My Life Defined by High Definition and Constipation (and Future in Acting? LOL!)

Last month, I got us a new PS3/Blu-Ray Player. I now know the difference of high definition TV, and I never expected it could change my life forever. HDTV, if you'll let me define it, means I now can see Megan Fox's sweat and freckles, Angelina Jolie's deep wrinkles, Amy Adam's pores and blemishes, and Meryl Streep's fine lines all over her face, and I thought that was just absurd and unreal. I brought my quest and addiction to this high definition vision to my eye doctor yesterday during my annual eye exam, and I asked him that I want a super power high definition contact lenses! And gladly he said, that there is now such a thing and it's called toric lenses, and guess what, they even have it in my Freshlook Colorblends in color green!

Constipation. Yes, I want to talk about it. I thought I was going through such miserable phase of my life this week when I felt my body is refusing to you know what. I blamed it on my cold medicine. I blamed it on the weather. And I blamed it on my PMS. I even blamed my dogs. I finally realized that this is only a state of my mind. So here's what I did, instead of me stressing out and thinking about bloating, breaking out more blemishes, shame and hair loss, etc. because of this constipation, I have to reverse my thinking. So I thought about thinking about the toilet. Like how beautiful it is, and how peaceful I can be when I'm in the toilet. The toilet. The toilet. The toilet. And it worked and it's over.

For you all following my talent audition blog, I did get a call last week, and they wanted me to come back for a second audition and workshop with a casting director in late Feb. I may sound excited in my blog but the reality here is that I thought I walked in in a wrong audition. I was hoping it was a modeling audition! So I thought this second invitation was unexpected. But hey, I plan to show up and see what this audition really is all about and if this has any part of my future. Stay tuned.

"You Look Like You're From The East Coast"

I remember few weeks ago, this cashier at a local store here in Heber, asked me if I was from the East Coast. I smiled and said, "No, I'm from here in Heber." And he looked funny at me when I walked away.

So, when I was in California and in Minneapolis last week, I have received some comments from random folks (who don't really know me) and said to me, "You look like you're from the East Coast!" It didn't bother me, but when I was in the Twin Cities, I received the same comments.... I didn't quite know what it means. I asked myself, "Was I rude or arrogant, and what is that look from the East Coast?"

Having been sick since I came back, and for few days now, I had to find out what that means. I asked my Facebook friends and even my aunt in New Jersey, and their comments were positive and that I should take it as a compliment, a good one in fact.

I googled and now I understood that it was a fashion statement... I must be looking good like Carrie Bradshaw in Sex and the City, strutting in my 4 inch high heels, my huge flower ring, and bling-bling necklace, and looking like a high powered Manhattan bitch in my black suit. And I must be wearing my fierce "I'm-independent-I-can-take-care-of-my-self" attitude.

So... I started to make my own observation, here in our little Utah town of Heber. After work, I walked in the grocery store, and people were shopping in pajamas, sweats, slippers, torn t-shirts, messed up hair, some looking like crap with no make up and no bra (God forgive them)... and I was in my work suit, on my platform suede booties, looking sharp and shiny. And now I realized that I'm different... but not really from the East Coast.

So whatever happened now to the promdi lad I once knew who has turned into a country western rocky mountain diva? I guess she's hiding in the closet.

My Fabulous Birthday Blog

So... I just turned thirty something on April 19th!

Since my trip for this weekend has been cancelled, I was able to put together a last minute birthday eve get together with my closest friends. I had no time to prepare, so I just served them cheese dip and chips, grapes and roasted peanuts!

You all know I like to sing karaoke, so it will not pass my birthday without me recording a song (duet) for all of you. This is me and my amazing friend, Eryq, doing a showdown of "Bakit Ngayon Ka Lang." This is sooo hilarious! (Thanks to you who gave us 5-stars on this video!)



Here's my new favorite birthday photo taken in Kamas on April 19th. My husband took this stolen photo of me...

Britney Spears Circus Concert in Salt Lake City, April 14

There are only two words that can describe Britney Spears and her Circus Concert in Salt Lake City on April 14th: SPECTACULAR SHOW!!! I felt like I was in a Las Vegas show! There was a magician who did magic on her and I thought that was really cool! I highly recommend that you be a part of this party of a lifetime.... so, pick up your 5 inch heels high thigh boots, fishnet stockings, micro-mini skirt, bling-bling bra, and feathers!

Here's my video of the show's opening number from Salt Lake City!


I have read and seen the reviews of this concert tour before I decided to buy my tickets. So, I already knew what to expect. She lip-syncs and she doesn't dance as much anymore like the old days. But I went there to see Britney Spears and how well she can bring on a show, and it was an amazing experience for me. It was well-worth it!! She didn't walk out. She didn't say nasty things. She filled the Energy Solutions Arena with her thousands of maniac Utah fans, from little girls to hot mommas, from teens to yuppies, from gays to drag queens!

So, since this is my once in a lifetime Britney moment, I have two missions.... #1, to make my husband deaf after the show as I was screaming on his face like a mad cow, and #2, I wanted to look like her if she was a Fabulous Pinay!

The Hannah Montana in Me

I personally related to Hannah Montana in her new movie that I watched today.

When I was updating the new layout of all my blogs to create my own brand and identity in the bloggers' world, I felt that I have finally reached the point that I've become very comfortable not only in writing my thoughts, but in the character of the "Fabulous Pinay Diva" that I have created here in my blogs. I thought I was ready to forget the small town promdi that I used to be. But no. She's still lives in me and I sadly felt that I hardly know her now...

The first time I heard Miley Cyrus' song, "The Climb," I already know that this is my kind of song. Rightly so. Here's the video of the song that moved me...



Long time ago, I have climbed on different mountains, and I still do... but just thinking of how far and how fast I have climbed now, I can see that the view is just beautiful... but it's not about the view that mattered inside my heart.

It's the climb.

My Blog's Brand Identity Crisis

I was reading lately about how to make my blog a success by keeping a brand identity. Like readers want to see something that they will expect out of you everytime they see your blog. I realized that I really don't have one and I have been blogging for almost two years now. I'm not surprised because I knew back then from the start that I have a blog identity crisis, which only my family and friends can understand on a personal level (since I only write about personal schtuffs here!). But I see that random people who doesn't really know me take a peak at my confessions blog and they find me a little bit weird... like a split-breed between a rebellious bionic woman turned gay-drag queen versus your small town dream girl next door turned vain fashionista country living diva!!!

Good example is when I experimented and featured my resort here in my personal blog for a few times last week, and I see that few passers-by got really excited about what more I have to say about my work. My tone was straight forward and some people liked it, and they liked me just like a scoop of plain vanilla... (Or I think, my hot photo in my two-piece swimsuit really helped!! Uh-huh!!)

Then all of a sudden, I posted my pre-meditated goofy self image in a curly blonde wig and they thought they were haunted all of a sudden by a drunken, retarded blogger who is chanting "Ur So gay and you don't even like boys....."

So, to take my "straight face and professional life" to the next level and start building my brand identity in the bloggers' world, thus the creation of my new Utah Savvy Diva blog came to place. If you like me "straight and pro," check out my work blog.

And for all of you who are enchanted by my personal blog identity crisis and usual crazy antics here in my confessions blog, just stick with me.